After reading my last post today and not high on anesthesia anymore, I wanted to apologize. I sounded horrible, complaining about 'only' getting twelve eggs. I think I was more disappointed that the quality wasn't good and with my husband's sperm being soo horrible, that we just had even less of a chance of things fertilizing normally. Again, I am sorry!
The nurse did call today and said that we have five that are fertilizing normally so far.... which I am completely thankful for. Considering that three days ago we might have canceled the cycle- which would have meant no eggs, I am so thankful to have five that are progressing so far. Husband and I talked, and all we really want/need out of this cycle is one! We only need one to continue to grow and then stick (of course we'd like more to transfer/freeze, but I'll take what I can get!)! I asked the nurse about my eggs- and she said they had looked almost "too mature." Which, because of the drop in my estrogen makes sense. I guess they let them cook a couple days too long... I kind of want to hold my RE's office accountable, because I feel like they didn't monitor me very closely (I only went three times before transfer - four if you count the last minute appointment because my estrogen had dropped). But, there is nothing we can do about it now. We'll know more the next time we have to do it, then!
As far as symptoms go, I was definitely sick all day yesterday from the anesthesia. I warned them, but I guess the meds had worn off by the time I got home. Next time I am getting a prescription for Zofran or something! One weird thing is, I have hardly had any cramping! I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing, but I do think it is because my estrogen was on the lower side and they didn't take many eggs.... I dunno!
Anyways- I hope everyone has survived the weather that has seemed to hit most states west of the Rocky Mountains. This weekend is suppose to be beautiful here, so I hope everyone else has a good weekend too!
6 comments:
Great attitude to have! You just need that one golden egg! Will be crossing fingers for a good dividing report of those five special ones!
don't ever feel bad for being frustrated or feeling down. we all feel it from time to time and what better place to vent about it. i'm glad you're feeling better now and i hope that you have 5 healthy embies to show for it all...along with a healthy take home baby, too, of course. ;)
YAY for 5 growing eggs! That's wonderful news!
I agree with Carlia... this is your place to vent. We all do it to, and we encourage one another through it. I didn't read it as a lack of gratitude or a bad attitude... I read it as uncertainty and disappointment given a tumultuous experience. Wishing you the very best of luck and hoping those little ones continue growing and developing, that they find their home in you for the next nine months, and that you're soon safely holding them in your arms!!!
You have no reason to apologize. This is YOUR blog! I hope no one said anything to you that made you feel as if you had to apologize. One thing I have learned during this experience is that everyone has their own pain, and it is real and individual and you don't have to justify your feelings. Your expectations were higher, so of course you were disappointed.
I am praying for your five, and your right, it only takes one. My RE office keeps reminding me that it is there job to "arrange a date" for the eggs and sperm to meet, all me and DH have to do is bring a little to the table. Sounds like you both did just that. Good luck with your 2ww.
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