am i crazy?

So over the last couple days- I thought my symptoms were getting worse- more gagging and definitely more food aversions. I was hungry constantly- if I didn't eat every few hours I thought I was going to pass out or throw up.

But then last night I came home from work with a horrible migraine. I wasn't even a little bit hungry. The thought of food made me want to vomit. I took two tylenol pm and went to bed.... without dinner. I thought I was going to wake up in the middle of the night or early this morning starving... but I didn't. I woke up this morning- dare say it- normal? No food aversions no nausea... just not very hungry.

I dunno. Maybe I an overanalyzing everything too much. My husband tells me to stop stressing. I know there is nothing I can do to change anything that happens, but its just so hard. I want this little baby so bad.

This is going to be a long day. Ultrasound tomorrow. Should be nine weeks....

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Still not a lot of symptoms...

Gosh- I don't think I'm ever going to stop stressing... at least for a few more weeks. Today I am a little over 8 weeks. I still don't have any morning sickness. I know some of you may think I am lucky but it makes me very nervous... I have read that your chances of miscarriage are higher when you don't have morning sickness. I don't feel pregnant.... just fat. Hardly any of my clothes fit me anymore. But that could be because my boobs have grown about two cup sizes. I went from a hardly a B to a very full C. It definitely makes the hubby happy. I do have the ocasional food aversions and at times a heightened gag reflex especially when I haven't eaten. Occasionally some crampy feelings and pressure (bloating?) in the pooch area. Not really anything else.

On saturday I got sick with a sinus thing. That hasn't helped anything. There isn't much you can do- and what you can take are so limited when you are pregnant- so I am stuck with tylenol pm to help me sleep and tissues by my side throughout the day...

I dunno. Soo nervous. Next ultrasound is Friday. Keep praying that this baby is part of the Lord's plan for us and we'll see that little heartbeat flickering away.

I hope all ya'll had a better weekend than me!

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Good To Go!

So everything looked good on the ultrasound this morning and all lab values came back perfect.... so why do I feel so apprehensive towards this cycle? I think I am just depressed because I know if this one fails (which I feel like there is a good chance it will)-- I will have to wait until next year before trying anything again. Ugh! Will I ever become pregnant?

So tell me this ladies... has anyone ever felt so "blah" about their next cycle after a failed one?

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